Brain Cell Saving

While contradictory is the only adjective to best describe my mindset right now, question mark is the exact punctuation representing my brain.

Answers have been what I am looking for almost every moment. Although I remember one time I figured out myself that there should be no absolute answers to give reasonable explanation, once again I fall into the hole of finding absolute answers to fit with my philosophy.

But then what exactly is my faith and philosophy?
Disregarding this annoying big question mark in my head, my mindset is more like a balance measuring the weights of different answers to create the best outcomes. Obviously my balance is not really working and most of the time the objects I have measured seem to be of same weight. This is why the current situation is driving me crazy and I can't help being confused.

So the whole logic system tells me to make own decisions depending on my gut and mood which are always like a rollercoaster without consistency. Then it turns out my world keeps spinning til I get exhausted and finally makes me feel like I am such a mess.

It's a god damn CYCLE.

And yea I am such a mess right now you may say.

So screw my brain and my mind, I am not thinking anymore.
Now I mention it in here so everyone can be my witnesses.

I AM NOT THINKING.
This is my new philosophy from now on.